Well, I [metaphorically] abseiled to my 65th. Bear G. would be proud of me. Maybe plumbing the depths of Howells' dysfunctional kingdom gave me the strength to be immune from knocks. And if I survive, dear reader, so can you. All of you!
I was recently asked why I fight on. I never wanted to, but after years pass you don't want to think of this time/effort as wasted; to say nothing of the trauma they put you through. All campaigns began as moral wrongdoing and someone's urge to put things right. I did want the life I chose not the bruising life of a campaigner, yet there IS destiny in this.
I can even make black humour. It's like lifting the curtain in a French farce and [ooh la la] AWP caught with pants down.. But rather than admitting adultery [=adulteration of evidence now embarrassingly exposed] they are STILL tut-tutting over contents of condoms [= false ejaculations]. It's the AWP Magician's circle - a tawdry circus exposed by me.
But what to do? Surviving documents are in my database carefully tagged by subject, date and waiting a QC. I have so much insight into what you all suffered, how and why. These are tragedies not tawdry farces when the safety curtain falls. The play is over - our suffering goes on.
I watched the magnificent BBC production of, 'An Inspector Calls,' last night. I could so easily have been that girl. Yet I am not. It cannot have been for nothing.
Marianne's guides to mental illness received professional acclaim. Two new works are now on sale, 'Finding Time' & 'Beating the Bully.'